User blog:Ootwar/This is gonna be tough

Hi there.

My name is Ootwar, and I used to be active here and in Dream Logos Wiki. Usually when it comes to announcements, I have a mindset for them ready. For this, I want to make this a very long and clear explanation about where I'm going and why I am neutral about people wanting me to go away. But sometimes, I have way less words than what I actually need.

First thing out of the way, I basically ruined my own reputation here. I lost it. I became too rude for my own right, I lost all interest and patience, and I can definitely blame the way I tried to lead these wikis. At first, I thought about just letting the admin team be a little loose, not get too ahead of myself. But then I found out that was not a good way to lead a team, because it led nowhere; nothing was happening, so I decided a more effective method; that being calling out other admins for slacking off, and assigning deadlines and tasks. But that drove me crazy the most; in turn, after that, it made me feel like I was acting a bit too entitled, and I'm kinda okay with retiring.

But it turns out I didn't really retire; I just kinda left for a while. I intended the break to be a relief, for me to work on a video game for once, because I thought that could be done within the two years I set to have a break from these wikis for. But as you can tell, the video game didn't really work out either.

So, what else has happened with me, while I was away? Well, for one, I got into a fight with an 11 year old, and also with a self-professed "hebephile", and that ended up with me getting my SoundCloud account suspended and also a warning on my personal Discord server. So, I haven't changed. I'm also 20 years old now, an age where it's better to consider not being associated with such childish behavior. Enough about me, though.

Well, okay, a little bit more, but I promise it's related to this. A while back, I said I'd love to demote everyone, if I wanted to, and I still kind of do, for the reason of starting over. Yes, I kinda did hold my grudge against everyone for a while, and that may have influenced me threatening to do so. My intentions was to have a limited admin team for both wikis, in order to prevent absolute chaos, like what happened with Greeny Phatom Wiki... twice. It seems like not that many people care about that though, and just want to be admins themselves, because apparently, a parliament is too hard to arrange to decide on what to do with the wiki and its content.

But since people love to ruin wikis like that, with Luciano's promotion to bureaucrat without discussion with Blue or TLM (or me, since it's a very powerful decision), who ARE in fact still active, despite not doing much on the part of admin tasks (yes, I know, they have been NoTiFiEd, but that does not count as actual discussion about the promotion), I'm willing to throw my gloves away and walk out the door.

I still stand by the fact that I was basically running this as a solo gig almost, due to little to no interaction with anyone else, and if me leaving this whole wiki family means there will finally be some sort of activity done by more than one admin, as teamwork, then I'm down for that.

And that's all I can say for now. If you want to hear more from me, reach out to me at Ideas Wiki, because it's actually somewhat more in order and that's where Wazzupguys really belongs. (Yes, I really roasted you.) I'm officially retiring as a bureaucrat, and so, Monthly Updates might end here, unless someone is willing to take the torch from my slipping grip. I might miss you, I probably don't, but you know, this is probably the best time for me to go. Sorry it didn't take years to get me to leave.

tl;dr: screw you guys, i'm going home